on growing up...

when i was young, i always wished i would grow up faster.
the adult world seemed so alluring, freedom to do what i want, financial stability, and even working seemed like fun, looking good in corporate wear and doing my part to help the world... and of cos, a little girl's dream of having a family... a knight in shining armour...

now that i'm grown up... i wished i never grew up.
is this what they call the irony of life?

i never knew that growing up means realizing that my family isn't as complete as i thought it was.
i never knew that growing up means they expect you to understand their situations.
i never knew that growing up means the realizing that dreams of a knight in shining armour is not going to come true.
i never knew that growing up means i gotta deal with people who lie and cheat.
i never knew that growing up means finding out that working life isnt what i imagined it to be...
i never knew that growing up is so difficult...

who can i trust when both of you are not honest with me?

i just want you to be honest... why is it so hard?



i feel like i'm nobody's child... :(