Paranoid

Recently there's been alot of news about large proportion of women unaware of the dangers of ovarian cancer. Apparently, majority of the women surveyed had no idea that pap smears do not screen for ovarian cancer (they are for cervical cancer only, btw) and many did not know the signs and symptoms of ovarian cancer. Ovarian cancer usually occurs in women above the age of 60, but occurs in young women as well (although rarely, they its often the fiercest form of cancer?)

So why do I say I'm feeling paranoid? They've been advertising on the papers & tv about the signs and symptoms of ovarian cancer so much, that I think I actually have a few of them. Some of the symptoms that I can remember off hand include bloatedness, abdominal pain, weight changes, change in bowel/urinary habits... Of the 5 common symptoms, I already have 4. Darn... it doesnt help that these symptoms are soooo common. Damnnnn paranoid now. Plus I remember last year I heard that this asian gal, one year younger than me got ovarian cancer, underwent chemo and lost alot of hair. Worried about my crowning glory as well now. How...

Back again

The past few days had been hell for me. I moved back into my cosy lil' townhouse which was good, but unpacking the boxes and boxes of crap took quite a bit of effort. Everything is finally in place, but my room feels so empty. There were boxes that were left untouched, because in the next few weeks they'll slowly be shipped back to SGP. Having mixed feelings about this, on one hand I'm really glad to be going home real soon, but on the other I'll be missing the days I spend living on my own. I actually kinda like the culture of kids moving out and living on their own when they're grown up, just like the people here. But I guess its not going to work in SGP, where we chinese value different things.

I was watching the news the other day and it said that an eygptian man was jailed for blogging stuff that were insulting a certain religion. I think some people take this blogging stuff too seriously. I don't know about others, but I rant alot on my blog, complaining about things from A to Z, and most of the time, I meant no harm to anyone. But if one day, someone picks certain stuff from out of my blog and sues me for it, I don't know how I'm going to defend myself! Maybe we should all restrain from blogging mean stuff about others, even if its just pure complains.... I don't wanna go to jail!

Hangover

Gosh, its my first night back home and it was LEGEN... (wait for it) DARY!

Yeah rite, I got myself drunk. I really just wanted to stay home & snooze away, but my best friends really wanted my company, so... met them for a couple of drinks =P

We went to this pub place called Highlander, its one of the last places I wanna be actually. Its more like a pub for ang mohs, and since I've been spending my past 3 weeks with ang mohs 24/7, seeing more of them here isnt the most exciting thing. Anyway, as all drunkards would say, "I didnt drink alot wat....." really!! I only had 1.5 glasses of white wine and a snowball. See! not alot!

Anyway, don't know if its because I'm too tired or wat, those 2 drinks just killed me. I puked 1/2 my dinner out on the way home and had one of the worst hangovers of my life. I was pukish the whole morning and had a really bad headache.

BUT... I can't say the night was all bad. For 1, I really enjoyed our brainless small talks at the bar and the silly antics like Lam piggying me until my arm hurts and Gao shoving ice-cream cup down my butt crack and slapping my ass. Hur hur...

Overall, it was a LEGEN...(wait for it.... oh its coming...) DARY night! =)

OD-ed

I've been drowning myself in Prison Break for the past week. Yes, every evening after dinner, I'll watch at least a couple of episodes. (I know I'm catching on a lil' late, but at least I'm catching on!)

And for the past week, I've been suffering from insomnia. I think its all because of the prison break I'm watching. I get my mind all excited just by watching the show. I guess my brain can't switch off even when I'm lying on my bed. So I just toss and turn on my bed for most of the night.

For those who did watch the show, you should be very familiar with the scenes when the "cons" bump into/sees cops nearby. You know, the nervousness that sends shivers down your spine. Anyway, my point is, today as I was driving home from shopping, I saw a police car some distance in front of me with a few cars and traffic was moving kinda slowly. I felt shivers running down my spine! haha... Maybe its not funny to most, but I felt silly being so nervous in seeing policemen. Hee, I'm dumb la. Thats why I think I'm overdosed. Maybe I should just rest for tonight and not watch any. I'll try...

On a good note, I bought my new year clothes today! Very happy. Pretty sure no one will wear the same clothes as me. I hope!

Tmr is Friday!

Yay, its Thursday. Tmr is Friday... 8 more hours of work and I can have 2 days of rest. Yay... And next week I only have to work for 2.5 days... more yays!

The only thing that will evoke a boo from me is the weather, yes I'm complaining about the weather again. The cool autumn like days are going to be over soon. Tmr onwards its going to be 30 degrees and above. So hopefully it doesnt hit 38 before I leave!

Work has been alright so far. I think I'm a true blue workaholic. No work/nothing to do and I'll be feeling blue. Like today, I could have pretended to be busy and spend 1/2 the day staring at my computer screen. But no, I looked for my supervisor and told her that I've completed most of the work that she's given me. So I got myself landed in another mini project. And I'm actually feeling good about it. Its been a fulfilling day. Did alot of self learning today, and starting to appreciate the workings of public health. I think I might branch into the public health sector one day. Hur hur, considering how much I used to dislike public health, this is a 180 degrees change for me. Okay, I know I'm getting alot of eye rolling from people like Gao, Lam and ah hu... So I shall shuddup, at least I know when to stop talking! hur hur... (private joke between ah hu & I =P)

Time for more prison break. I have to say this. Wentworth Miller is damnnn cute lah!

End of the world?

Oh no... I think the world is going to crash and burn soon. I think we should all follow what ah hu said in her blog, quit work, quit school and just spend your time travelling the world and visit the 7 wonders of the world. Like seriously... look at whats been going on in the world

1. Singapore/M'sia/Jakarta experiencing the worst floods in centuries
2. Australia experiencing worst drought in decades
3. China experiencing the hottest winter in centuries
4. Europe experiencing warm winters where snow boarding, skiing mountains are closed because the snow have all melted
5. America experiencing snow storms
6. Middle east... err... bombing themselves?

See... no part of the world is safe... Lets just all spend quality time with our loved ones.. forget everything else!!!

=)

Yay yay yay! Tmr's going to be cool! And I mean temperature cool, heh. Tmr's going to be a cool 27 degrees! Its been a week since the scorching heat had visited this lil city.

Anyways, I realised that I've been going through this bout of mood swings, which explains my incessant ramblings and grumbles on this blog. But, I'm feeling happier now. I don't know if its the company I got this weekend or the 5 non-stop episodes of prison break I've watched or the whole weekend of just doing nothing. I guess its a lil of everything?

Anyway, there's this post on Mike's (shrek) blog on his depression episodes, which I thought was pretty interesting. For guys who never understood how girls felt when they were cranky, maybe you should have a read and learn a lil from this sensitive new age guy!

Work today was pretty alright, least I had, and knew what to do. Kept me occupied the whole day. I've written a list of things to do tmr at the office, but I doubt it'll keep me busy the entire day. Oh well, since tmr's going be such a fine day, I shant complain and I'll look on the bright side of things =)

Enough for today, time for a facial to treat myself =P

Sunday

One of the most common things you'll find in someone's blog is lyrics, chinese, english, japanese... wateva... And most of the time, no one reads them, its like a free expression of emotions, one you dont have to be responsible of.

原来

街灯绊住我眼前
下一步 拉长的影子
嘲弄的回顾
电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话 掉一滴泪
今晚的我 会是如何入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地 跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你 收的干净
我也会 不留一点痕迹

说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话 掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我 很难入睡

Melting

Sharing the eratic weather here. Its the super duper hot season now.



40 degrees tomorrow, I think I'm going to faint soon.

My Journey

I just had to rant about my journey today. Its horrible, refer to the diagram below.

As you can see, the distance I travelled today = 2x + y
Actual distance that I should have travelled = z
And since 2x + y > z , I wasted precious time and beauty sleep!

All the buses in this city heads towards the City. So eventhough there's a direct route from my house to my uni, I had to travel into the city, then out again. It sucks because the traffic in the city is very bad, its very congested. It would be less annoying if I didnt have to walk a long distance to change buses. Seriously... I had to walk like 15 mins to the bus stop to catch my next bus, and its freaking 35 degrees today!

Last night was very warm too, hence I didnt manage to get much sleep cos I was tossing and turning the whole night. Which makes me very cranky today.

So yeah, pardon my ranting. I just have to get it out.